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THE JOURNEY
of how far we came, in words of mine.

It was all in His plans for me to study in Sydney. Now that I'm here, it's up to me to shine His light.

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FLY AWAY TO SYD
on the journey to Sydney.

4 years in Sydney is an awefully long time.
Catch me before I fly away, cause I'm having the time of my life.
Friends come and go, but the close ones never part irregardless of the distance.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

15:09

I'm a selfish prick.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

03:38

Rants

It's been a long time since I blogged. And I really need an avenue to rant at this moment.
Its 4am, and I'm wide awake.

I've just had my first thought provoking conversation in months, and I can't help but question myself.
What have I been doing the past months?

I seemed to have lost all motivation, all senses.
The days and assignments are just seem to be random strangers in my life.
How did I allow it to happen?

And I just can't help but wonder where the road ahead takes me.
Literally.

All my life, the road ahead always seems to have an opportunity which I would grab hold of, and advance.
I didn't have to worry about PSLE because I was affliated to the secondary school. I have never dreamt of studying anywhere else other than SNGS.
I didn't have to worry about O Levels because I will most certainly be accepted into Victoria Junior College through appeal, using badminton.
I didn't have to worry about A Levels because I was accepted into UNSW Asia even before I took my examinations.

Every step of the way, I had a helping hand or a special skill of mine which would take me places.
I look back at my tertiary education, and I know I've matured. And I certainly have leadership capabilities. But I also have the tendency to run away from challenges and problems. I might be graduating without any internship on my records. I might be just a nobody. And the thought of it scares me.

I have no idea what doors of opportunity lies ahead of me, but I certainly hope that there is one, and that I will grab hold of it tightly.

S

Sunday, August 23, 2009

22:03

Sometimes, I don't know if the problem is me.
Or why do things start feeling different from what it used to be?
Or did we just run out of common things?

20:35

Uni has been hectic.
My schedule has been topsy turvy.
But there are things that I'm looking forward to.

14 Sept - GG Season 3 Premier
21 Sept - House Season 6 Premier
1 Oct - The Girl who Kicked the Hornet's Nest is coming out in the bookstores.
Mid-sem Break - maybe Melb.
Mid-Nov - Home Sweet Home (:

maybe more things in between.
I hope the time passes quickly and meaningfully.
Missing the people at home a lot.

---

Donna Crouch spoke at Sunday Night Live tonight.
It's about Lift.
Who gave you a lift?
Who are you going to give a lift to?

Hmphs, the names started springing up in my head.
Every one of them that I am so grateful for.
And I thank you for each one of them who once or still is passing/in my life.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

20:49

Haven't been updating cause there isn't much to update, in my opinion. Oh wells, it is just assignments after tests after assignments.. Like seriously, I feel like giving up on some stuff. But i obviously can't. Other than work, these are the other things I'm doing..

I love Sundays, and church.
I dread SSA meetings and its events.
I dread having to do I/S and B/S.
I love my daily dosage of coffee.
I suffer from coffee withdrawal.
I've been reminded of unpleasant things recently.
I am having Tour De France withdrawal symptons.

On to the movies that I've been watching recently.
Graduation (2007) - like the story line. small production.
Casanova (2005) - the ending of the movie killed the decent storyline and humour.
Crazy First Love (Korean) - Random, but funny.
The Sweetest Thing (2002) - 5mins of the penis song summed it all.
Dragonball Evolution - I thought it's okay, but apparently the guys thought it was crappy.
Rachel Getting Married - I watched it initially cause I thought it was a chick flick. But i was so wrong. It's such a serious film with various talking point. Pretty intense film.
Quantum of Solace - You can't go much wrong with a licenced killer. But the plot didn't attract me enough. Come to think of it, I can't remember what the Quantum was.
Never Been Kissed - Cheesy cheese. Predictable.

YUPPS.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

03:14

June-July 09

The past 4 weeks have been an absolute whirlwind for me. Hectic, yet fun. Exciting, yet distracting.

From studying, to birthday planning, to more studying and exams. From the arrival of my brothers to skydiving and my birthday party and more sightseeing. Yet, more awaits with the meet-ups of old friends..

The month of July promised so much. With the Wimbledon Mens' Finals, Hillsong Conference and Tour De France.

One at a time, they started to fly away and I'm left to cope with this alone again. It takes a time for me to get used to being alone again. I guess that explains why I'm still awake at 3am when I have to wake up early for church the next day.

This winter seems to be different from others. My family was here. I didn't have a proper rest the whole holiday. My friends from Singapore visited. I didn't travel out of NSW. I went to Hillsong Conference. And most importantly, I seem to be heading in a different direction compared to some of my friends. Maybe its tough, maybe we're caught up with things. Is that a proper excuse for us then?

Soon, the holidays will be over and school will start again. Life will be a routine like no other, except for the fact that I vow to restore my grades to the glory it deserves.

Where life and the semester leads me, I do not know. All I know is that I'm transformed and that I'll work hard towards my goal and vision.

Friday, June 26, 2009

01:24

I was my birthday.
But instead of growing wiser, I screwed up once again.
Badly.
It was my fault, definitely.
Maybe on both counts.

I don't know how to live this life anymore.
Pleasing one or the other results in hurting the another.
Birthdays are meant to be a happy thing.
Am I supposed to learn something from all these?
Perhaps change my way of life?
My perception to things?
My insensibility and my couldn't-care-less attitude?

My birthday wishes this year are simple.
1) I really want everyone close around me to be happy. Like happy happiness.
2) My housing contract to be settled with extra favours from God.
3) Perhaps someone significant in my life. I think I'm ready for it. Who knows.

There are many things that I can wish for, but right now- This is all that I want. Simple, with no frills.

-

Anyway, I celebrated my 21st with a Sky dive. Sick.
The fact that I'm typing here now means that I'm alive. Haha.
It's not as scary as I thought it would be.
In fact, I reckon the 40-storey giant drop to be even scarier than this. Maybe its just me. Who knows. I'm going to zonk out now and reflect on my behaviour the past few days and past year.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

01:16

The effort is just not good enough

It just feels inadequate.
It's not the best.

Running, hiding, avoiding are not options one should take in life.
They should not even consider such real options.
Just be true to yourself and others.

Emo-kid is back.

x

Monday, June 15, 2009

20:11

I think it went well

Left my exam 30min earlier yesterday. Left my exam 20min earlier the other day.

I have a few theories on why I'm behaving this way:
1) I'm absolutely brilliant
2) I cannot be bothered with exams
3) Exams no longer excite me
4) I have no interest in whatever I'm doing

I know I'll do a credit, but I don't think such behaviour warrants me a distinction. Sigh. I did pour out everything I knew, just not sure if its enough.

--

Had enough of a rest yesterday. Lazied around the whole day, just refusing to start work. Just had breakfast, and I'm going to wash up and leave the house soon.

Stumbled upon this blog that has this guide on surviving in SNGS. I applaud those person for trying to make SN a more accessible place. But it's just hilarious how much clues you decide to drop, whilst not revealing your identity. SN is not that big, ya know. It's so easy to find out who you are, speaking from experience. Anyhows, here's the blog. http://www.ultimategenuineguide.blogspot.com/
It was really entertaining to me.

x

00:01

I flipped opened the Bible today

The words "He who is angry with a brother or a sister is guilty of murder" stood out to me. I am unable to turn away from the facts. Many other things stood out to me too. I guess its time for me to correct it and live right again.

--

On a cheery note.

I'm intending to get a Croquembouche as my birthday cake! Going to cost a bit and its not filling! But I really want it! Once in a lifetime. Haha. Excited.

--

Accounting exam tomorrow. Feeling much more confident than I did yesterday. I guess I can say I'm prepared, but I'm still praying for the paper to be favourable to me. Haha.

I suppose waking up this morning at 630am and reach church in time for the 8am service helped a lot. I almost had second thoughts about not going! Sheesh. Okay. Off to bed to get my healthy dose of 7 hours of sleep.

x

Thursday, October 29, 2009

15:09

I'm a selfish prick.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

03:38

Rants

It's been a long time since I blogged. And I really need an avenue to rant at this moment.
Its 4am, and I'm wide awake.

I've just had my first thought provoking conversation in months, and I can't help but question myself.
What have I been doing the past months?

I seemed to have lost all motivation, all senses.
The days and assignments are just seem to be random strangers in my life.
How did I allow it to happen?

And I just can't help but wonder where the road ahead takes me.
Literally.

All my life, the road ahead always seems to have an opportunity which I would grab hold of, and advance.
I didn't have to worry about PSLE because I was affliated to the secondary school. I have never dreamt of studying anywhere else other than SNGS.
I didn't have to worry about O Levels because I will most certainly be accepted into Victoria Junior College through appeal, using badminton.
I didn't have to worry about A Levels because I was accepted into UNSW Asia even before I took my examinations.

Every step of the way, I had a helping hand or a special skill of mine which would take me places.
I look back at my tertiary education, and I know I've matured. And I certainly have leadership capabilities. But I also have the tendency to run away from challenges and problems. I might be graduating without any internship on my records. I might be just a nobody. And the thought of it scares me.

I have no idea what doors of opportunity lies ahead of me, but I certainly hope that there is one, and that I will grab hold of it tightly.

S

Sunday, August 23, 2009

22:03

Sometimes, I don't know if the problem is me.
Or why do things start feeling different from what it used to be?
Or did we just run out of common things?

20:35

Uni has been hectic.
My schedule has been topsy turvy.
But there are things that I'm looking forward to.

14 Sept - GG Season 3 Premier
21 Sept - House Season 6 Premier
1 Oct - The Girl who Kicked the Hornet's Nest is coming out in the bookstores.
Mid-sem Break - maybe Melb.
Mid-Nov - Home Sweet Home (:

maybe more things in between.
I hope the time passes quickly and meaningfully.
Missing the people at home a lot.

---

Donna Crouch spoke at Sunday Night Live tonight.
It's about Lift.
Who gave you a lift?
Who are you going to give a lift to?

Hmphs, the names started springing up in my head.
Every one of them that I am so grateful for.
And I thank you for each one of them who once or still is passing/in my life.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

20:49

Haven't been updating cause there isn't much to update, in my opinion. Oh wells, it is just assignments after tests after assignments.. Like seriously, I feel like giving up on some stuff. But i obviously can't. Other than work, these are the other things I'm doing..

I love Sundays, and church.
I dread SSA meetings and its events.
I dread having to do I/S and B/S.
I love my daily dosage of coffee.
I suffer from coffee withdrawal.
I've been reminded of unpleasant things recently.
I am having Tour De France withdrawal symptons.

On to the movies that I've been watching recently.
Graduation (2007) - like the story line. small production.
Casanova (2005) - the ending of the movie killed the decent storyline and humour.
Crazy First Love (Korean) - Random, but funny.
The Sweetest Thing (2002) - 5mins of the penis song summed it all.
Dragonball Evolution - I thought it's okay, but apparently the guys thought it was crappy.
Rachel Getting Married - I watched it initially cause I thought it was a chick flick. But i was so wrong. It's such a serious film with various talking point. Pretty intense film.
Quantum of Solace - You can't go much wrong with a licenced killer. But the plot didn't attract me enough. Come to think of it, I can't remember what the Quantum was.
Never Been Kissed - Cheesy cheese. Predictable.

YUPPS.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

03:14

June-July 09

The past 4 weeks have been an absolute whirlwind for me. Hectic, yet fun. Exciting, yet distracting.

From studying, to birthday planning, to more studying and exams. From the arrival of my brothers to skydiving and my birthday party and more sightseeing. Yet, more awaits with the meet-ups of old friends..

The month of July promised so much. With the Wimbledon Mens' Finals, Hillsong Conference and Tour De France.

One at a time, they started to fly away and I'm left to cope with this alone again. It takes a time for me to get used to being alone again. I guess that explains why I'm still awake at 3am when I have to wake up early for church the next day.

This winter seems to be different from others. My family was here. I didn't have a proper rest the whole holiday. My friends from Singapore visited. I didn't travel out of NSW. I went to Hillsong Conference. And most importantly, I seem to be heading in a different direction compared to some of my friends. Maybe its tough, maybe we're caught up with things. Is that a proper excuse for us then?

Soon, the holidays will be over and school will start again. Life will be a routine like no other, except for the fact that I vow to restore my grades to the glory it deserves.

Where life and the semester leads me, I do not know. All I know is that I'm transformed and that I'll work hard towards my goal and vision.

Friday, June 26, 2009

01:24

I was my birthday.
But instead of growing wiser, I screwed up once again.
Badly.
It was my fault, definitely.
Maybe on both counts.

I don't know how to live this life anymore.
Pleasing one or the other results in hurting the another.
Birthdays are meant to be a happy thing.
Am I supposed to learn something from all these?
Perhaps change my way of life?
My perception to things?
My insensibility and my couldn't-care-less attitude?

My birthday wishes this year are simple.
1) I really want everyone close around me to be happy. Like happy happiness.
2) My housing contract to be settled with extra favours from God.
3) Perhaps someone significant in my life. I think I'm ready for it. Who knows.

There are many things that I can wish for, but right now- This is all that I want. Simple, with no frills.

-

Anyway, I celebrated my 21st with a Sky dive. Sick.
The fact that I'm typing here now means that I'm alive. Haha.
It's not as scary as I thought it would be.
In fact, I reckon the 40-storey giant drop to be even scarier than this. Maybe its just me. Who knows. I'm going to zonk out now and reflect on my behaviour the past few days and past year.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

01:16

The effort is just not good enough

It just feels inadequate.
It's not the best.

Running, hiding, avoiding are not options one should take in life.
They should not even consider such real options.
Just be true to yourself and others.

Emo-kid is back.

x

Monday, June 15, 2009

20:11

I think it went well

Left my exam 30min earlier yesterday. Left my exam 20min earlier the other day.

I have a few theories on why I'm behaving this way:
1) I'm absolutely brilliant
2) I cannot be bothered with exams
3) Exams no longer excite me
4) I have no interest in whatever I'm doing

I know I'll do a credit, but I don't think such behaviour warrants me a distinction. Sigh. I did pour out everything I knew, just not sure if its enough.

--

Had enough of a rest yesterday. Lazied around the whole day, just refusing to start work. Just had breakfast, and I'm going to wash up and leave the house soon.

Stumbled upon this blog that has this guide on surviving in SNGS. I applaud those person for trying to make SN a more accessible place. But it's just hilarious how much clues you decide to drop, whilst not revealing your identity. SN is not that big, ya know. It's so easy to find out who you are, speaking from experience. Anyhows, here's the blog. http://www.ultimategenuineguide.blogspot.com/
It was really entertaining to me.

x

00:01

I flipped opened the Bible today

The words "He who is angry with a brother or a sister is guilty of murder" stood out to me. I am unable to turn away from the facts. Many other things stood out to me too. I guess its time for me to correct it and live right again.

--

On a cheery note.

I'm intending to get a Croquembouche as my birthday cake! Going to cost a bit and its not filling! But I really want it! Once in a lifetime. Haha. Excited.

--

Accounting exam tomorrow. Feeling much more confident than I did yesterday. I guess I can say I'm prepared, but I'm still praying for the paper to be favourable to me. Haha.

I suppose waking up this morning at 630am and reach church in time for the 8am service helped a lot. I almost had second thoughts about not going! Sheesh. Okay. Off to bed to get my healthy dose of 7 hours of sleep.

x